Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Author of My Life

"I am the author of my life. Unfortunately, I write in pen and can't erase mistakes." -Unknown

It always amazes me that so many of the most influential quotes known today are by unknown authors. I like to think of whoever said it or wrote sitting up in heaven looking down at us and laughing and thinking, 'These people don't have a clue!'

As much as I love this quote, I do not fully agree with it. To me, the fact that I cannot erase my mistakes is not unfortunate. There will always be those mistakes that I forever regret, but every mistake I have made has been a learning experience. All mistakes are. And without those mistakes and the lessons I learned from them, I would not be the person I am today. If it weren't for certain mistakes that others have made, I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't be where I am today.

Some of the most generally relatable examples I have involve my boyfriend. A number of years ago my family moved Oklahoma from California, effectively turning my world upside down. For quite a long time I was very bitter, but eventually I connected to some amazing people who would turn out to lifelong friends. After about 3 years, my family returned to California.The following summer I returned to Oklahoma to visit some friends and go on a mission trip with my church there. A guy friend who had simply been a friend quickly became my best friend during that vacation and a little over a year ago, we made our relationship "official". If my parents hadn't made the mistakes that led to us moving to Oklahoma in the first place, I never would have even met him. And if they hadn't made the mistakes that led to us leaving Oklahoma, he would have simply remained a friend. But through mistakes made, God opened doors to give me the biggest blessing he has to date, my boyfriend.

And if it weren't for the mistakes I've made in the past, for the degrading and bad relationships I had before, I wouldn't know what a blessing God gave me when he gave me my boyfriend.

We're currently approaching a time in our lives when our lives really begin. We've both just graduated, we're applying to colleges, coming to the realization that this is us. No one else. From here we make the choices that will mold our lives. And I know I speak for both of us when I say I can't wait to see what God has in store for us. And personally, I can't wait to look back on and learn from the mistakes I pen along the way.